Stressed to the max

I woke up did my daily chores drunk my coffee☕. I also did one load of laundry all while logging in online and writing down important stuff I need to know before returning back to college. I get easily stressed out. I wish I could control it, but I can not. The past couple of days have been VERY hard on me. I hate what I see when I look in the mirror. I do not expect perfection but all I ask for is a flat tummy and arms that do not jiggle. That is ALL I see when I look in the mirror. I do not see beauty, I see my flaws. And to me, they outweigh everything else. Unfortunately it projects into my everyday living so most of the time I am stressed and depressed. I tend to take it out on others unknowingly and at times it keeps people away. But the ones who love me, they TRY to forgive me and my flaws. Then I have my children on the other side who expect so much from me and nothing but the best. I can not be weak for them. I have to put a smile on my face and push forward. To be honest if it were not for my children I really do not know where I would be right now. They are my motivation. My pain in the butt. The air that I breathe. And my reason for being. Well till my fingers type, Later everybody