Pen to paper..2/19/21

Boy or boy is anything ever going to be ok for me. When will I finally feel pain-free days? I'm just so annoyed with these illnesses already. I don't know if it is the Sjogren's that is doing this or Lupus. But from time to time I have spasms in my toes. Like they hurt really bad. And it can happen to anyone of my toes at any time. But it mostly happens to my big toe. It can happen all of a sudden. I could be simply laying down and watching tv and out of nowhere here comes the spasm. It hurts so bad and comes on in full force. No time to warm me up just BAM here you go. On a good day, it will last for a few seconds but on a bad day like today it lasted for a minute but it felt like forever. My kids see this and try to straighten out my toes, sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn't. Thank goodness that today it worked. I'm just so over these illnesses it's not even funny.